I'm going to be sick.

I didn't ask for this. I was finally ready to let go. I had let go, and told myself that I wasn't going to care about you, or even deal with you any longer in my life. And so today, when EVERYTHING is looking up, you come back and feel the need to apologize and tell me what you did wrong. And that you fell in love with me. And that you're so so sorry. And all I can think about is that I was so in love with you and you pushed me aside and found another girl. What am I supposed to do?

I'm going to be sick. I'm so damn sure I'm going to puke.

There's another boy, and I'm about 99% sure he's going to ask me out. And I'm so goddamn ready for this, so ready to be fully and completely loved. And now you go and shit on all of my plans because you feel the need to tell me everything. And I appreciate that, but honestly, I can't take it.

I really can't.

The World Language Department.

Upon visiting the website for the languages department, I read that their goal is to teach their students of the world and to prepare them for "citizentship in a multi-cultural, multi-lingual global community." To be completely honest, if you want to prepare yourself for a world ful of cultures, what you should do is immerse yourself in that culture, travel, and get to know the people, and not just take one of the rinky dink language courses provided at my school. Although, I love my french class so so much, what about the kids that take spanish just because it's easy, or take italian because they're italian. I don't even think they want to be there and leave the country, they just want to learn so it looks good on their college application. Mind you, I'm taking french because I want to go to France and I think it'll help me in my future studies in Europe and where ever I go, be it England, or Scotland, or Africa, or the Carribean. It will help me in the future, and I'm glad for that.

ON ANOTHER NOTE: I fully intend on taking a nap so PEACE.

HI, my name is Emily.

Currrently listening to : When the Day Met the Night - Panic at the Disco.

Sensitivity.

I am legitimately confused with myself. So I've come to the conclusion (after some very very very odd signs, that I am completely taking on superstitiously) that I am kinda sorta swearing off sex until...a while. I've been watching a lot of movies, tv shows, and youtube videos where people just end up getting pregnant, not to mention that there are a megaload of preggars girls attend my school (which, in hindsight, isn't really because of my town, there's a home for pregnant girls in my hometown). But pregnancy is such a scary thing to think about and I just don't want it to happen to me. I'm not ready yet. So I will keep my promise to myself to remain a virgin until I'm completely ready and not to rush things or get pressured into things. 

So there's a kinda blog for you.

Kay?

less than 3, 

Emily

Currently listening to: The Cake Song from Lazytown

GETCHURWANDSUP!

I was going to blog about something important.

Yeah, not so much.

Enjoy the comic above.

Bold As Love.

I'm scared that I rush into things. Like, I legit rush so fast that by a week, I'm totally over it. I don't want to do that again. I want someone to like me and for me to like him, and to last for a long time. Not a month, not 2 weeks. I want it to last awhile. That might be selfish, but he's cute. He's amazing to me. I've known him for less then 24 hours. He already seems perfect. 

It can't be true. I just want to know if it really is. 

All I hear is talk and I just want to ignore it. I just want to be with someone who loves me. Because that would be awesome...but we'll just see. I don't want to fail at this like I have in the past. Because that would kill me. Or just hurt me very very badly. UGH.

The largeness of this hood makes me look like a dementor. ACCIO LOVE!

Best Wishes!

Currently listening to: Kiss and Sell by the Maine :))))))

From a democrat's point of view.

I felt outraged after seeing this on facebook: 

"_______ will no longer watch the news so I wont know what the president does and wont really care"

"_______ is the commies are comming! the commies are coming! Hope your happy...the middle class is screwed!"

"_______ has lost faith in the American People......wonder how many of them voted for Obama just because he is black......"

"Exactly! at least sc pulled thru with a republican majority"

"yes. glad to live in a smart state."

"_______ unfortunately, president obama !"

"_______ obama is president :( "

"_______ we're all dead."

-Those are the status updates from McCain supporters on facebook. 

I just don't under stand them...especially the bold ones.

Don't Worry 'cause It's All Under Control...

But sometimes I worry it isn't. What can you do?

I can't watch any youtube videos. My mother is eating up the intarwebz, so sorry. I'll watch you tomorrow...and hopefully make a video tomorrow. YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE IS TOMORROW?! THE RELEASE OF PAPER TOWNS BY JOHN GREEN!!!! I don't think I've ever been this excited for a book to come out...even Harry Potter! Lolzers, Harry and the Potters just came on iTunes. 

I've been meaning to blog more. It's not that I don't want to, it's that I don't haz time. I swear I've sat down at 10PM and been like "Do I have time to blog tonight?" and the answer is always no because I have 203948320948 videos to watch. Since the intarwebz is all laggy, I have time time tonight :)

Band is ridiculous. I spend ALL my time there and the section is just getting really bitchy and horrible. People are controlling and we just don't want it. I can take care of myself fine, thank you very much. I care too much about something I have very little control over.

One of my best friends has completely forgotten about me. I don't know what else to do.

Paper Towns comes out tomorrow. Buy It. It'll make me, John, Hank, and all the nerdfighters happy. It's the only real thing that I'm looking forward to.

Hi, my name is Emily.

Currently Listening To: Firefly by Blue Skies (cover)