Right as things start to go well

Something always has to go wrong. I never thought that one of my best friends would just start ignoring me one day and then tell me that I mean nothing to her. I took the fall for her. I stood up for her when people criticized her. I got her out of trouble when she totally could've gotten in trouble with me. But out of nowhere, I try to apologize then she calls me off on everything I've done. Every time I'm happy, she always has to put me in a bad mood. She went back on her words that she promised to me. She put my friendship with my serious best friend in complete jeopardy, because she couldn't hold back. I've tried to fix things after a complete tear in our friendship, and things just get worse. I can't try to say I'm fine, because this fight has been tearing me apart. But now I don't even want to try to think, because things are starting to get so shitty. I knew that things were starting to get bad, but I never thought she would just tell me she doesn't care. Even if she says that she doesn't, I know that somewhere she still does. 

listening to: Hide and Seek-Imogen Heap

It's You That I Adore

Sometimes I think that life is way to complicated to be good, but it's actually great. I have a feeling about summer, and about life, that makes me want to get up and dance. Though, I must admit that I'm going to be in a really weird mood for the rest of the school year, and until finals are over and I don't have to go to school, it's going to be that way. But I don't care, because summer is almost here! I have finished my song of fepic proportions. Part of me wants to put it up here, but then again I want to wait until it's a video then post. 

-Threads of Sincerity on Friday

-The Goaround on Saturday

-Possibly hang out with Katie sunday

-Work on shitty science project all weekend.

Otherwise, I have a great weekend.

hi. my name is emily.

listening to: Second, Minute, or Hour-Jack Peñate

I waste so much time

My family is coming down for graduation in DUNDUNDUN 2 weeks to the day.I have to clean my room. It's not even a joke. Because it's so jokes.

For seriously, My room was really clean. Then my parents decided it was a good idea to put all of their crap in my room, because we're cleaning the house. So now my room looks like a bomb exploded in there.

I watched a movie yesterday and the day before on WWII, called Enemy at the Gates. It's about Stalingrad, starring Jude Law (drool), Joseph Fiennes (MEGADROOL), and Rachel Weisz. That women made me really pissed. Joseph Fiennes character was in love with her, and then she went and had sex with Jude Law. I was so pissed. But, the end made me cry. They hung a little boy and shot Joseph Fiennes in the face!!!!!! I am in love with that man. Oh what a shame. It made me sad sad sad.

That's besides the point. I'm almost done writing the song previously mentioned in this blog. 

I think that I'll put it up on youtube when I'm finished.

Hi, i'm emily.

listening to: Washington Square-Counting Crows

So i am writing a song

Here a the lyrics to a song i am in the process of writing. It's a little be Backseat Goodbye, a little bit Jack Johnson...or so i think. here goes nothing.

I woke up this morning to the sound of Blue Skies

And I realized today would be the best day of my life

The sun shone through the window at an alarming pace

I pulled off the covers with a smile on my face

So I grabbed my guitar and started singing this song

Cause I know you want something you can sing along to

It's a great day and I'm glad you're here to spend it with me

We can watch the clouds of go to a drive in and see old movies

I just want to bide my time with you

If you'll spend your days with me too

the first line is exactly how it sounds. 

It's not my fault we ended up like this.

I don't think it's fair that the only guy who calls me attractive has to hate one of my best friends. It's this dumb shit that has been going on for a while. And apparently, he seriously likes me too. 

This sucks. But I shall stay optimistic. 

I went to Chinatown town yesterday. Public transit is confusing. Since the El was closed, I had to take the bus until the subway. But we got on the wrong train and it took us 2 1/2 hours to get home.

I got confirmed this morning. Yay Jesus? We went out for lunch afterwards and I got belgian waffles. Yum. 

I feel the need to write something meaningful.

I bought a capo yesterday in Chinatown, so I shall record and write some more music. I am indeed excited for that. I just have to get on the lyrics. My biggest struggle.

Have fun at the beach in your mind,

Emily.

Listening to: Everything-A Cursive Memory